Occasional thoughts of an Anglican Episcopal priest

Category: Poetry (Page 9 of 12)

Marriage: Early Morning – A Poem – 10 September 2014

Loaded Dishwasher

Marriage: Early Morning

Morning, gray mist,
caressing warm mug,
rich coffee steam,
senses alert but soothed,
peaceful moment,
quiet moment,
almost, not quite, silent,
like a kitten softly purring.

Clank of glass!
Clink of china!
Rattle of flatware!
Slam of dishwasher door!
Why must she do this now?
Every nerve jarred and
stretched like a rubber band
just before it breaks.
My ears hurt!

How could two people have
such different rhythms
after decades
together?

“Please,” I want to say,
“Please . . . .”
Like some cat mewling
for its morning kibble.
“Please, can’t we enjoy
the morning’s silence?”

But, no. Best to endure,
just a moment . . .
or ten . . . or twenty.
Over, it will be over,
sometime . . . soon?

– by C Eric Funston, 10 September 2014

garden outside – A Poem – 9 September 2014

Weeping Japanese Maple

garden outside

gentle movement, japanese maple weeping
red maroon tears outside my window
further on gray boulder pachyderm sleeping
hunched untouched by breezes slow

tall brown grass, weeds elegant, nearby swaying
like wheat and tares of scripture’s tale
rose bush, heat spent, nods as if praying
telling its beads with silent wail

autumn garden, botanical sclerosis,
ends its season dusty and gray
brittle, the stems that once held posies
dreaming of spring, so far away

– by C Eric Funston, 9 September 2014

God Damn! – A Poem – September 7, 2014

You've gotta say "I'M A HUMAN BEING, GOD DAMNIT! My life has value!"

God Damn!

I said it!
I said it from the pulpit!
Into the ears
of little-old-ladies-with-blue-hair;
into the ears
of young-fathers-with-first-grade-children;
into the ears
of strait-laced-conservative-young-business-women
into the ears
of unexpecting parishioners who never believed
they would hear
“God damn”
from the pulpit.
It was, I said,
in a poem
and I wanted to honor
the poet and the poet’s decision
to be true to the poet’s vision.
Treat it, I said,
as a teaching moment
about the use of rough language
as an artistic decision
as a literary device
as a method of emphasis.
“God damn right!” I thought
in the silence of my own mind.
I said it!
I said it from the pulpit!
And the little old ladies with blue hair
were shocked (I saw it in their eyes)
and the young fathers with first grade children
were angry (I saw it in their eyes)
and the strait-laced conservative young business women
were scandalized (I saw it in their eyes).
Why?
Moses commanded the people of God
not only to pronounce blessings
but also curses,
not only to celebrate good
but also to condemn evil.
Jesus healed and blessed,
but he also cursed;
he set a table for thousands,
and overturned tables in the Temple.
Perhaps we have not said it enough;
Perhaps we should have said it
from the pulpit
more often.
God damn cruelty
God damn oppression
God damn prejudice
God damn racial profiling
God damn homophobia
God damn apartheid
God damn security barriers
God damn war
God damn death and disease and evil and . . .
the list goes on.
Perhaps we have not said it enough.
So that
the little old ladies with blue hair
ought not be shocked
the young fathers with first grade children
ought not be angry
the strait-laced conservative young business women
ought not be scandalized.
Perhaps we should say it
from the pulpit
more often.
“God damn!”

– by C. Eric Funston, 7 September 2014

My Early Life in Sports – A Poem – August 22, 2014

Teaball

My Early Life in Sports

She called it a ball
(my grandmother did)
but it wasn’t a ball
not to my mind
this “ball” was shaped like
a large walnut or a small egg
it wasn’t round
to my mind a ball
is round
except, of course,
the oblong oddly-shaped pigskin
my brother would toss in the yard
and play “flag” with his friends
and tell me I couldn’t play because
I was too little and too young and
“Go away!”

She called it a ball
but it wasn’t a ball
not to my mind
this “ball” was made of
cheap pressed metal covered
with shiny chrome
it wasn’t made of rubber
to my mind a ball
is made of rubber
except, of course,
the billiard balls on the felt covered tables
in the store-front first-floor pool hall
beneath my grandfather’s second-floor
insurance agency
the pool hall I wasn’t supposed to enter
except, of course,
that I did and learned to shoot snooker
at seven years of age —
seven-year-old snooker-shootin’ Kansas Slim —
until someone would say
what’s that kid doing here?
“Get lost!”

She called it a ball
but it wasn’t a ball
not to my mind
this ball was attached to a chain
a chain that ended in a hook
to my mind a ball
is unattached
except, of course,
the red rubber ping-pong-sized ball
attached by its long elastic rubber band
to the wooden paddle my cousin
could hit that thing a thousand times
and never miss and I was lucky
to hit it maybe five times
before it would hit me in the face
and my cousin would laugh and take it back
“Give it!”

She called it a ball
but it wasn’t a ball
not to my mind
this ball was covered with holes
to my mind a ball
has a solid surface no holes
except, of course,
the whiffle ball we would take to the street
and hit with a stick when we couldn’t find the bat
playing what we called baseball
but the adults called stickball
in the middle of Fourth Street
until some driver or the local cop
would tell us no you can’t do that
“Go home!”

She called it a ball
and when I’d come home because
I couldn’t play football or
I couldn’t play snooker or
I couldn’t play paddle ball or
I couldn’t play baseball then
she’d take that ball from it’s nail
above and a little to the side of her stove
and she’d open it up and fill it with tea
and hang it on the side of her tea pot
that chipped china pot with the roses
and fill the pot from her kettle
into a cup she’d put a spoon or two of honey
with a couple crushed leaves of fresh mint
from the patch between the hen house and the fence
and she’d pour the tea
and we’d sit
and I’d forget
about football or snooker or paddle ball or baseball

She called it a ball
but it wasn’t a ball
not to my mind
to my mind a ball
is not magic

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by C. Eric Funston
22 August 2014

Late Middle Age – A Poem – August 15, 2014

Harlequin and a Lady by Konstantin Somov, 1921

Late Middle Age

Deep in the thickets of never were
my doubts and dreams fight
a fierce battle over the splinters
of ambition while overhead
soaring hopes somersault,
doing lazy loop-di-loops,
catching the thermals
of passion’s fierce heat quickly spent.

“Where,” cries the harlequin of discontent,
“where would you be now
but for the locks and chains of
decisions made in haste?”

“Who cares?” answers Lady Faith,
“The smith who forged the chains and locks
from the same fires of choice
created the keys of freedom.
The present is not bound nor
the future determined by
the verdicts of the past.”

“I care,” yells the buffoon,
stepping on the shards
of lucrative partnership.
Kicking aside the judicial robes
of political aspiration and
the rochet and chimere
of a failed election.
“I care very deeply about
the might-have-beens.”

“How silly,” she softly sighs,
gently folding the cope and miter
of another episcopate
that never was, laying it beside
the mortar board of
unachieved academic tenure.
“What a waste of emotional
time and investment!”

Overhead
a grandchild’s laughter
explodes and cascades
with retirement fireworks
over Galway Bay.
The clown and the Lady
both look up
and smile.

by C. Eric Funston, 15 August 2014

At the Center of the Heart – A Poem in Celebration of St. Mary the Virgin – August 15, 2014

Annunciation by Fra Angelico

O God, who have taken to yourself the blessed Virgin Mary, mother of your incarnate Son: Grant that we, who have been redeemed by his blood, may share with her the glory of your eternal kingdom; through your Son Jesus Christ our Lord, who lives and reigns with you, in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God, now and for ever. Amen. (Collect for the Feast of St. Mary the Virgin, August 15, 2014)

At the Center of the Heart

God sat upon God’s big, white throne.
God sat staring out the window alone
not seeing the superstrings and quanta, the quarks and the gravitons, not
seeing the gamma rays and x-rays and the dark matter, not
seeing the galaxies and the suns, the stars and the planets, not
hearing the drumbeat of time nor the music of the spheres, not
witnessing the dances of asteroids and meteors and comets, not
appreciating the wonder and the beauty that sprang
forth from God’s word, from God’s Big Bang.

God sat upon God’s big, white throne,
God sat staring out the window alone
at what only God could see;
God sat listening
to what only God could hear;
God sat witnessing
what only God could understand;
God sat appreciating
what only God could answer;
God sat pondering the question
at the center of the human heart.

God heard that question arise
from women and men, from girls and boys of
every tribe and language and people and nation;
God heard that question asked
by each of them, in his or her own native language —
Parthians, Medes, Elamites,
and residents of Mesopotamia, Judea and Cappadocia,
Pontus and Asia, Phrygia and Pamphylia,
Egypt and the parts of Libya belonging to Cyrene,
Romans and Jews, Cretans and Arabs,
Angles and Saxons, Inca and Aztecs,
Iroquois and Dutch, Celts and Chinese,
Inuit and Swahili, Vikings and Fijians —
in their own languages God
heard them speaking the question
at the center of the their hearts.

God heard that question arise
from priests and shamans, prophets and philosophers of
every religion and sect and theology and denial;
God heard that question asked
by each of them, out of his or her own terms and conditions —
Law and Obedience, Relationship and Sinfulness,
Light and Shadow, Existence and Meaning,
Disease and Death, Poverty and Wealth,
Suffering and Satisfaction, Sacrifice and Service,
Time and Eternity, Rebirth and Completion,
Intimacy and Loneliness, Despair and Joy,
and even feelings and thoughts and emotions
the asker could not or would not name —
in their own terms and conditions God
heard them speaking the question
at the center of the their hearts.

God rose from God’s big, white throne.
God rose and walked out the door alone,
passing through choirs of
angels and archangels, and
all the company of heaven,
as they lauded and magnified
God’s glorious Name.
God passed out heaven and walked upon the earth;
God walked in gardens at the time of the evening breeze;
God strode among stones of fire and in the midst of flames;
God stirred up seas so that their waves roared;
God marched in the tops of trees and strolled through the grass of the fields;
God sat upon altars,
placed his feet on temples,
stood atop pyramids,
climbed the steps of ziggurats,
rested in secret places,
housed in Holies of Holies,
visited public sanctuaries,
spoke to prophets and priests,
gazed on household shrines,
sat in people’s kitchens and at their dinner tables,
stood in their chambers and at their bedsides,
guested in workrooms and in their parlors; and
heard them speaking the question
at the center of their hearts.

God returned to God’s big, white throne.
God returned and God called, “Gabriel!”
Robed in white, wings aflame,
a sword of righteousness in his angel hand,
Gabriel answered the holy summons:
“Here am I. Send me.”
Gabriel stood before God’s big, white throne and asked.
“Lord, should we strike with the sword?”
“Put your sword back into its place,” answered God.
“I have heard the question
asked in the tongues of mortals
and even of angels.
I have heard the question
ringing in the noise of gongs
and the clanging of cymbals.
I have heard the question
pursuing prophecies that will cease,
craving knowledge that will end.
I have the heard and there is
but a single answer to the question
at the center of the human heart.”


Archangel Gabriel by Ivan Mestrovic

Gabriel stood before God’s big, white throne.
Gabriel stood and trembled, anticipating
a mighty tempest, with peals of thunder, rumblings, flashes of lightning, expecting
a devouring fire, melting wax, refining silver and gold, awaiting
an earthquake, splitting mountains and breaking rocks.
A sound of sheer silence filled the room;
in a still small voice God said:
“Go to a town in Galilee called Nazareth,
to a virgin engaged to a man whose name is Joseph, of the house of David.
The virgin’s name is Mary.”
Gabriel stood and trembled, questioning
at the center of his angel’s heart,
“Why, God? Why this? Why her?”
God sat upon God’s big, white throne,
God sat staring out the window, not quite alone.
“Gabriel,” God said in that deep quiet voice,
“She alone can make the choice; she alone
of all flesh has heard me speaking the question
at the center of my heart.”

Gabriel stood and trembled, greeting
“Hail, thou that art highly favored,
the Lord is with thee:
blessed art thou among women.”
She questioned; he explained.
A sound of sheer silence filled the room;
in a still small voice Mary said:
“Be it unto me according to thy word.”
And Gabriel stood and trembled, sighing,
and relieved, departed,
still, perhaps, unsure of the question
at the center of his angel’s heart.

In the beginning was the Word,
and the Word was with God,
and the Word was God.
The Answer to the question
at the center of the human hearts,
however spoken, however phrased,
or never spoken, never phrased,
was in the beginning with God.
All things came into being through the Answer,
and without the Answer not one thing came into being.
The Answer was in the world,
and the world came into being through the Answer;
yet the world did not know the Answer.
Long ago God spoke to our ancestors
in many and various ways by the prophets,
but in these last days he has spoken to us the Answer,
and the Answer became flesh and lived among us.
The Answer grew and became strong,
increased in wisdom and in years,
and in divine and human favor, but
sometimes wondering, sometimes asking,
“Simon son of Jonah, all of you,
do you love me? Do you place me
at the center of your heart?”
before returning
to the center of God’s heart.

And Mary sat upon her chair crafted by Joseph;
Mary sat staring out the window alone.
Mary, who had birthed the Answer,
from the center of her womb,
treasured all these things,
at the center of her humble heart.

– by C. Eric Funston, 15 August 2014

Originally posted at the Episcopal Café’s Speaking to the Soul.

Five AM Walking the Dog – From the Daily Office – August 12, 2014

From the Psalter:

Clouds and darkness are round about him,
righteousness and justice are the foundations of his throne.

(From the Daily Office Lectionary [Morning Psalm] – Psalm 97:2 (BCP Version) – August 12, 2014)

Moon Behind Clouds

“Comedian Robin Williams, the Oscar and Grammy winner known for his rapid-fire delivery, was found dead in his home after an apparent suicide, authorities said.” — NBC News

Five AM Walking the Dog

The clown is silent; the laughter stilled.
The last mad improvisation was fatal;
Often wisdom behind silliness
but I cannot see any sense
hidden in this.

In desperation, the jester demanded
attention in a world whose madness
was crazier than his own; the clouds
and darkness hiding any glimpse,
any chance of righteousness, no
justice visible, no
hope perceived, no
more wrestling with the black dog

A world in need of jesters
is one poorer as I walk beside
my black dog and try to make sense.
Moon glows small silvery yellow
disc behind mist behind
clouds behind dark behind
chill beyond thought beyond
sense below perception below
knees kneeling on cold wet
grass weeping beneath
the silence of the jest
praying in the darkness beneath
the silence of the clouds.

“Mork, calling Orson;
Mork, calling Orson . . . .”

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I Pondered the Works of God – From the Daily Office – August 7, 2014

From the Psalter:

I will ponder the glorious splendor of your majesty
and all your marvelous works.

(From the Daily Office Lectionary – Psalm 145:5 (BCP Version) – August 7, 2014)

Motorcycle CrashThis morning, I woke up from a dream, grabbed the notepad on my nightstand, and scribbled some notes for a poem.

Then I poured a cup of coffee — thanking God for the wonder of automatic timer-controlled coffee makers — and opened my Book of Common Prayer to read the Daily Office.

Two psalms this morning. The first, Psalm 85:

They have said, “Come, let us wipe them out from among the nations;
let the name of Israel be remembered no more.”
* * *
Do to them as you did to Midian,
to Sisera, and to Jabin at the river of Kishon:
They were destroyed at Endor;
they became like dung upon the ground.

Too much this psalm reminds of Gaza and rockets and bombs and dead children, and I am not sure I want to continue the Office, but habit and discipline compel me to do so.

The second psalm . . . speaks to that strange dream and intermingles with my poem notes and I scribble some more and then hurry through the rest of the Office, unhappy when the reading from Judges presents Gideon as the hero who slew the Ishmaelites and, again, the dead of Gaza come to mind, but I rush through the prayers, hurriedly petitioning, “May they rest in peace and rise in glory,” and then return to my notes and finish the poem.

I’ll title it I Pondered the Works of God. Don’t ask me what it means. You decide.

I dreamed a dream of God
who was riding a motorcycle
a racing bike
and wearing a splendid
one-piece jumpsuit
of metallic silver fabric
and a helmet
and the visor on the helmet
obscured God’s face
when he turned
to look at me.

God laid the bike down
on the track
in a cloud of tire smoke
like a burnt holocaust
of an ancient time
and God stood up
gloriously unharmed
and sprinted off the track
to open the trunk of his car
a 1957 Cadillac Coupe de Ville
and God began
to take off his helmet
and to climb
into the trunk
as he turned
to look at me.

And I woke up
I awakened to a day
I knew would be filled
with decisions and doubts
with answers that would be
partial.

And I pondered the works of God
how marvelously he piloted his cycle
how skillfully he laid it down
how carelessly he left it lay
how athletically he ran to his car
how absently he climbed into the trunk
how majestically he turned to look at me.

And I knew
my partial answers
my doubtful decisions
would be
the solid foundation
of years to come
when God would turn
and look at me.

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I Arise Today: Sermon for Trinity Sunday – RCL, Year A – June 15, 2014

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On Trinity Sunday, the First Sunday after Pentecost, June 15, 2014, this sermon was offered to the people of St. Paul’s Episcopal Church, Medina, Ohio, where Fr. Funston is rector.

(The lessons for the day were: Genesis 1:1-2:4a; Canticle 13 (Song of the Three Young Men 29-34); 2 Corinthians 13:11-13; and Matthew 28:16-20. These lessons can be read at The Lectionary Page.)

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Triquetra

I arise today
Through a mighty strength, the invocation of the Trinity
Through belief in the Threeness
Through confession of the Oneness
Towards the Creator.

Although he probably didn’t actually write it, tradition credits St. Patrick of Ireland with the poetic charm called a “lorica” or “breastplate” which begins with these words, an invocation of the One, Holy, Blessed, and Glorious Trinity whom we today celebrate. Since the time of St. Thomas a Becket, the first Sunday after the Feast of Pentecost has been set aside as day of special veneration of the Triune nature of the Godhead. Becket was consecrated Archbishop of Canterbury on the Sunday after Pentecost, and his first act was to decree that the anniversary of his consecration should be commemorated each year in honor of the Holy Trinity. This observance spread from Canterbury throughout the whole of the western church.

Patrick continues:

I arise today
Through the strength of Christ with his baptism,
Through the strength of his crucifixion with his burial,
Through the strength of his resurrection with his ascension
Through the strength of his descent for the Judgment of doom.

Our Gospel lesson today is the end of Matthew’s Gospel. In it Christ on the mount of the ascension, just before going up into heaven, gives the eleven remaining Apostles what has come to be known as “The Great Commission”:

Go therefore and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything that I have commanded you.

For Matthew mountains are what Celtic Christianity refers to as “thin places,” those places where the separation between the spiritual realm and the physical realm is narrowest, where the veil which separates heaven from earth is nearly transparent so that we have the feeling we could reach out and touch, even enter, the holy presence.

On a mountain, in such a place, Jesus calls his followers to a new beginning. The Eleven, standing proxy for all the followers of Jesus then and now, for you and for me, are called to be people moving in mission. It is important for us to note that this mountain is in Galilee, the place where Jesus began his ministry, the place from which he went forth but to which he returned, the place where he was grounded and rooted. The disciples, too, are from this place and their grounding in the Christian story is this same country where their journey began. Like them, we are called to claim our origins, to be rooted in the place where we entered the Christian story, not to be permanently bound there, but to draw strength from it as we venture out in mission into the wider world beyond. The place where we began as members of the community of Christ is, to each of us, an important place of foundation and also, perhaps, a thin place where we encounter the Triune God.

Patrick’s lorica continues:

I arise today
Through the strength of the love of Cherubim
In obedience to the Angels,
In the service of the Archangels,
In hope of resurrection to meet with reward,
In prayers of patriarchs,
In predictions of prophets,
In preaching of Apostles,
In faith of confessors,
In innocence of Holy Virgins,
In deeds of righteous [people].

Here, St. Patrick claims membership in the Christian community as his source of strength, as his foundation, as the community in which his mission is grounded and from which it is nurtured.

In a few moments, we will do something we have not done since Lent . . . join together in the General Confession, jointly and publically acknowledging that as individuals and as a community we have failed to live up to our obligations, that we have sinned “by what we have done, and by what we have left undone.” And we will be forgiven that failure by God’s absolution which reconciles us and restores us to the community and fellowship of the Church. When, as presiding priest, I pronounce the words of absolution, I speak not on my own behalf but for the whole church to which Jesus gave what is called “the power of the keys” when he said to the Apostles, “I will give you the keys of the kingdom of heaven, and whatever you bind on earth will be bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth will be loosed in heaven.” (Mt 16:19; cf. 18:18)

The words of absolution, which I speak as much to myself as to anyone, loose our sins, but also bind us into the beloved community:

Almighty God have mercy on you, forgive you all your sins through our Lord Jesus Christ, strengthen you in all goodness, and by the power of the Holy Spirit keep you in eternal life.

The community with which we are reconciled through confession and absolution is the community of the Trinity.

In the Triune Godhead all Christian community begins and finds its perfect expression. Humankind, as our Genesis reading reminded us, was and is created in the image of God. Thus, we are blessed with reason and skill; we are capable of experiencing emotion; and, like God, we have individual will and freedom of action. To be created in God’s likeness also means that we have the possibility of attaining holiness and immortality. To be created in God’s likeness further means that we are created to experience, participate in, and share interrelationship with others, for we are made in the image of the Holy Trinity.

The Doctrine of the Trinity is not a static principal of faith; it is the way in which the church, through the revelation of God, has come to appreciate and express of the significantly dynamic nature of God in the relationship of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit. If we have been created in the image of God and if God is Trinity then at the deepest level of our being, we are communitarian, created not for ourselves, but for one another, for relationship with each other and with God.

Many look at the mystery of the Trinity as if it were a problem in differential calculus. They seem to have the attitude that if one solves the equation, they will have figured out God and earned their entry into heaven. But, as Benedictine poet Killian McDonnell writes, God is not a problem to be solved:

God is not a problem
I need to solve, not an
algebraic polynomial equation
I find complete before me,

with positive and negative numbers
I can add, subtract, multiply.
God is not a fortress
I can lay siege to and reduce.

God is not a confusion
I can place in order by my logic.
God’s boundaries cannot be set,
like marking trees to fell.

God is the presence in which
I live, where the line between
what is in me and what
before me is real, but only God

can draw it. God is the mystery
I meet on the street, but cannot
lay hold of from the outside,
for God is my situation,

the condition I cannot stand
beyond, cannot view from a distance,
the presence I cannot make an object,
only enter on my knees.

Which brings us back to confession, to reconciliation, and to community.

The community to which and in which we are to be reconciled is not only that of the church or that of the human commonwealth, it is the community of the whole of creation. This is why our round of readings from Sacred Scripture bids us on Trinity Sunday to hear the long lesson from Genesis recounting the days of creation as each part of the natural order is ordained by God and pronounced good. This is the community that Matthew’s Jesus claims when he asserts that “all authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me.” “Heaven and earth” is a figure of speech called a merism, a manner of speaking by which the whole of something is referenced by enumerating its constituents or traits. In the Genesis creation story, heaven and earth comprise a single entity — God’s whole creation. We are a part of that community of creation and it is to that universal community that Patrick next looks in his lorica:

I arise today
Through the strength of heaven:
Light of sun
Brilliance of moon
Splendor of fire
Speed of lightning
Swiftness of wind
Depth of sea
Stability of earth
Firmness of rock.

The whole of nature comprises the foundational community of strength and support upon which a follower of Jesus may depend, because this community finds its strength and support in paradigm community of the Holy Trinity by whom it was creation.

Genesis insists that there is one God, who is sovereign and powerful. Unlike the gods of other peoples in the ancient Middle East, the God of Israel had no specified area of competence. The creation in the first chapter of Genesis is, as one commentator has said, “fiercely monotheistic,” yet even in its insistence on the one God, not limited in space or time, Genesis reveals the Trinity. From this god, the God, a wind, the Holy Spirit, came forth and spread across the void. This god, the God, created everything. This god, the God, simply spoke the Word (“in the beginning was the Word,” said John of Jesus) and creation happened. It is to this god, the God that Patrick looks for strength and protection:

I arise today
Through God’s strength to pilot me:
God’s might to uphold me,
God’s wisdom to guide me
God’s eye to look before me,
God’s ear to hear me,
God’s word to speak for me,
God’s hand to guard me,
God’s way to lie before me,
God’s host to secure me
against snares of devils
against temptations of vices
against inclinations of nature
against everyone who shall wish me ill,
afar and anear,
alone and in a crowd.

But we are never truly alone, nor are we ever really beset by these and the many other spiritual and physical dangers that Patrick goes on to list. St. Paul blessed and reminded his readers, “the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ, the love of God, and the communion of the Holy Spirit” are with us all. Jesus promised and reminded the Eleven (and through them, us), “I am with you always, to the end of the age.”

These are not mere blessings or simple an appeals to get along with one another; these are exhortations to be the new creation that the Spirit of God equips us to be, a foundational community patterned on the Holy Trinity. Just as the Persons of the Divine Trinity are never alone, human beings are created with a need for one another, a need to communicate with one another. Our thirst to communicate ourselves to others, to be in authentic relationship with each other is never exhausted. The only difference between our community and that of the Trinity is that God’s Triune relationship is perfect and total whereas in our human reality communication and relationship are imperfect and partial. Paul’s appeal for the presence of Christ’s grace, God’s love, and the Spirit’s fellowship is an appeal to enter more to the divine love that creates and sustains the church, that perfects and completes our relationships. The Trinity is the very source of our life in Christ, and in Christ we are a new creation with whom Christ promises always to stay.

So in the lorica, Patrick extols the totality of Christ’s presence, the inescapabilty of Jesus’ promise, “I am with you always, to the end of the age.” Patrick writes:

Christ with me,
Christ before me,
Christ behind me,
Christ in me,
Christ beneath me,
Christ above me,
Christ on my right,
Christ on my left,
Christ where I lie,
Christ where I sit,
Christ where I arise,
Christ in the heart of every [person] who thinks of me,
Christ in the mouth of every [person] who speaks of me,
Christ in every eye that sees me,
Christ in every ear that hears me.

Patrick concludes as he began, invoking the One, Holy, Blessed, and Glorious Trinity whom we today celebrate:

I arise today
Through a mighty strength, the invocation of the Trinity,
Through belief in the Threeness,
Through confession of the Oneness
Towards the Creator.

“The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ, and the love of God, and the fellowship of the Holy Spirit, be with us all evermore. Amen.” (2 Cor 13:14 as used to conclude the Daily Office in The Book of Common Prayer, page 102)

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Handwriting – From the Daily Office – June 14, 2014

From the Letter to the Galatians:

See what large letters I make when I am writing in my own hand!

(From the Daily Office Lectionary – Galatians 6:11 (NRSV) – June 14, 2014)

Writing HandI sort of remember something from New Testament class at seminary that Paul would compose his letters by dictation to a secretary and then add greetings in his own handwriting. What I can’t remember is whether this verse (which seems such a strange intrusion into the text of the letter to the Galatians) in which he comments on the quality of his penmanship is taken by scholars to be proof of genuine Pauline authorship or as evidence that the letter wasn’t truly written by him. I know it’s one or the other. Whatever . . . it’s in the accepted canon of the New Testament.

When I was a kid I remember that one of the attractions at county fairs in the Kansas town where my grandparents lived was a handwriting analysis booth. You would write out in cursive something like “The quick brown fox jumped over the lazy white dog” or “She sells sea shells by the sea shore” and then sign your name. The graphologist (as the analyst was called) would then tell you about your character traits and sometimes predict your future.

I always wanted to have my handwriting analyzed but my grandfather, who was a Palmer method penmanship instructor, would never allow it. He did, however, insist that his grandchildren learn proper cursive penmanship so in addition to going to the fair each summer we also had to practice writing things out and making evenly sized, evenly spaced letters and loops. His handwriting was beautiful, rather more Spencerian than Palmer; mine, while passable, never achieved the fluid beauty of his.

As an adult just finished with college and then a 12-week summer course in paralegal studies, I went to work for a law firm in Las Vegas, Nevada. The firm was then providing office space and occasionally support personnel for the attorneys trying to prove the validity of the so-called “Mormon will,” the alleged handwritten testament of Howard Hughes. From time to time I would be called on to deliver documents to their off-site location elsewhere in Las Vegas and, each time I was there, the lead attorney would delight in showing me the latest in their analysts’ charts and comparisons of the will to other exemplars of Hughes’s handwriting.

All of those things come to mind whenever I read Paul’s comments about this handwriting. (Although he doesn’t comment on the quality of his penmanship, he also makes note of a greeting being “in my own hand” in the first letter to Corinth. 1 Cor 16:21)

Handwriting is a lost art. Some schools have even discontinued instruction in cursive penmanship. I think there’s something sad about that. While what is written is clearly of more import than how it is written — the same thoughts will be conveyed whether written out, lettered, typewritten, or recorded by some electronic method — there is (as the county fair graphologists insisted) a personality to cursive penmanship. There is an investment of one’s self in the handwritten text. Time must be taken and care invested in what is written.

When I finally entered into law practice as an attorney several years after those days of running errands for the Mormon will lawyers, I got into the habit of handwriting the initial drafts of my court briefs and legal arguments. I found I could work with blocks of text, with aggregations of ideas, with turns of phrase and different phrasing more effectively by doing so. Today, when I make my feeble attempts to write poetry, I work initially with pen and paper. I find the act of writing my thoughts and images out makes them somehow more malleable than when they are simply input to the computer screen (as I am now “writing”).

Handwriting and hand-lettering were the means of transmission of information — of data, of lore, of stories, of sacred language, of everything — for millennia until the late 19th Century and the invention of the typewriter. Today, inspired by Paul’s commentary on his penmanship, I give thanks for the untold number of scribes who wrote down their own words or those of others, for Paul with his large letters and for Tertius who took his dictation (Rom 16:22), for monks and other calligraphers who copied holy texts, for poets and story tellers who played with words with pen and ink, and for my grandfather who taught me to value the English word written with the human hand.

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